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| so its 7 13 am and ive pulled an allnighter wid the asians. ive been
thinkin alot this morning. i dont know why and i dont know why i juss
want to let it all out. so life. life. mmm. life. honestly we always go
through ups and downs but wid the guidence of our lord, our strength
out faith and hope weve learned to cope wid it and get through it and
only come out stronger. what is the point of life? no dont worry im not
pullin no emo junk on this but think logically. we only live life
togrow stronger day by day mentally and physically. likee do you
remember when we were little, we'd play those games and when we
loose we get sad but wid the support of our loved ones weve learn to
pull ourself back and and continue and try harder. or when we
fall of our bike, as much as were hurt from the scrap on our knee, you
try and try to balance your self and learn to ride forward, move
on in life and look towards your future, cos if you turned around youd
fall back down. when you look towards your past, " its those lil things
that bring you back down" but lets face it . life is reality. and
reality hurts. i was reading this book in english class. tears of a
tiger.
and we were going through like alla those those things you
know steps to makin a story or lke figuring out the plot and alla
that shiiet. loll . well andy was saying how he feels like hes in a
swimming pool drowning. your so hurt wid life as much as you try to
pull yourself back up your porblems, your fears you just chase you and
bit you in the ass.
andy was drowning cos life was eating him all
up. he felt soguilty. we feel so vulnerable and weak. we try to gasp
for air. to try to live life but its hard. we open our eyes under
water, screaming for help. the clorine burns your eyes. your living
life, reality hurts and we wear these mask that people cant see your
true colors. like what we feel inside.
Why bother to impress anyone, if your first impression is going to be
someone your not. Whats the point of relationsships at this age. duude
nothing. When things happen in your life, it only makes you stronger.
that happened in my life to make me as strong as i am todaaay. Even if
it hurt its for the better.
Dude i didnt finish this when i was all in the mood & now i dont know where im going wid thiis. LADDEEEEER HA.
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its kinda like your lost and confused again.dont know where or who to
turn to.try to find your path and directoin towards life. but whos
gunna help you. life is a box of chocolate. in general. when it comes
down to the simple things and the people in your life. when you open
that box, your opening your eyes to the world, and coming out of your
shell. you pick a chocolate and you try to eat it. as your getting
towards that chocolate, your thinkin do you trust the outer layer of
it, dont judge a book by its cover. does it taste good , are they the
type of person you want in your life. and so on. then it comes down to
2 pieces left. you dont know which one to choose. choose one youll
regret that. choose the other
heey you might regret that to. but if you chooseone and not the other,
you dont know what your missing you. if you know one of them is
something youll like, your missing out on a new taste, a new expierence
in life. ive just hit such a big milestone in my life. highschool. its
better then i expected. this year went so fast. new people. and im so
happy thier in my life. i know when you hit highschool you still dont
realise who your friends wid but heey people come and go. just be
blessed to have memories wid that people. youve made such an impact on
me i cant even explain. but at times you leave me confused and i try
not to hurt you. as much as youve been hurt in your past,so have i. and
im trying to get back to my old stomping grounds and forget what
has happened. this leaves me clueless. if that person hurts you i feel
bad. if that person hurts me. youll know theres sumtin wrong then
everyone guna be hurt. UGGh Never mind. Lord help me realise what is
right for me. i understand i have what i need in life, weather
its not perminate, but the people i have in my life i thank you for
there presence, and the times they share wid me. Lord i pray to you to
help me realise if this is the type of crowd i should be around, and if
they are father, let them be able to stay in my life.Bcos youve blessed
me wid so many things, this is all i ask for.Amen.
i need to get you out of my life. even tho you aint really in it. youus in it.
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He doesnt give you things that you cant handle,
yet he strengthens us in our daily lives.Lord give
them the strength to forgive each other for any
burdens that is bringng them down. Let them be
able to open up to you and handle this trial with
you guiding them and watching them.Amen <3
LetGo&LetGod<3
"If He carried the weight of the world upon
His shoulders I know, my sister that
He will carry you"
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| You know theres always times when we find that special comfort zone in
our life, and really dont want to leave it and if you do you wouldnt
know how to get back in to that place and be able to be content wid
your surroundings.But ive realised that we are put in to situations
like these, or fall into this place to grow stronger and learn how to
be able to pick yourself back up and bring you to a level where you
know you belong. ive learned to face that fact that, no matter how much
i try, i pray i wont be able to bring me back into life where i wanted
them to be. He's Brought me here, this far and He wants me here, with
these people, this surroundings. If you can go through a mountain, pass
a pit stop, through an obsticale, thick and thin, tears and laughter,
you can do anything with God by your side. We all have our falling outs
in life where we dont always know where to run to and when we need him
most we forget about him cos we are more worried on the problem itself,
than if Gods guna help us.
Genesis 24:49 "Now if you will show kindness and faithfulness to my
master, tell me; and if not, tell me, so I may know which way to turn."
Lord i have my faith you, and im trying to have a stronger faith
towards you, help me guide me, watch over me during my daily trials and
troubles. Lead me to where i should be lead into.Help me to face whats
right and whats wrong. Lead me to a right direction, follow me in my
path of life, my years of getting older. Protect me from any wrong show
me the way to turn. Draw me closer to you.
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| Dam, so its basically friday and my spring break is almost over.
Maah duude this juunk went my so fast but atleast i was occupied the
whole week and wasnt home alone bummin out EVERYday. lol Practices for
fusion is a big sucess, like i seriusly thought it was gunna be mad
akwerd cos i didn't know anyone and they all be crashing my housse, but
we all know everyone now and were all comffortable wid each other, like
frikken asianz bummin out. haha. The dances are maad fun but SOMEONESS
gotta be jockin around while people are teaching. lol " ehhh youus
cuuute". lol but yeah my legs are so soore, these practices ae guna end
soon and fusions guna seem like down the street and then its prolly
guna be like we all never knew each other. its all good we stayinin
touch bbq's and hottubs at myy hoouuuse!. yeaah so uhm. i eally feel
bad cos ive kinda lost track inlife with god by my side, someway i
needa be all like iono how to explain it but the feelings i have wid
life now and my faith like b4?. ehh nvm but yeaah. uhhhh now ima have
to go to school after thiis weekened!.
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